I know you are coming
for I have been happy
for I have been happy for many days
the house brightens with my unreasonable giggles
and the unjustified laughter
nothing that I have gained
nothing that has been bestowed upon me
I have just been happy and wild
and I know you are coming
for I have been mocking life
just like the way you mock me
I wish I was peaceful and calm
rather than happy and unruly
may be your eyes fail you
but your ears are sharp
you can't see me smile
but you can hear me laugh
awake you are from your slumber
and ferocious you are
you want to trample me
crumble me and tear me
your madness sends me vibes
and long before you come
I can hear your pace
pace toward me
I think you will have victims all your way
and your hatred will explode
I don't know what have I done to you
I never knew you were there
I didn't know your name
but now I fear you
I fear your faceless existence
I fear your relentlessness
I fear your hatred
Yes I am equally to be blamed
I could have smiled and not howl
I could have been gentle
I could have been calm
Why I had to be rogue
why, why I had to to exult
you come like hurricane
fierce and wild
your intentions are evil
and they would have spilled like volcano
if you had eyes
my gut churns
my desires are nipped
listless become days
as my heart gallops in fear
and they ask what is it that you fear
for you have everything one would want
like a calf attached to a butcher
I am attached to you
You violate me, drain me
yet I can't get you off me
I look and introspect
what is the link so strong between you and me
inability to find makes me more restless
if you had a face, you would have a cynical laughter
for you love my helplessness
for you love to see me panic
my entirety goes numb with my existence
I want to pull the curtain to the world
and the world come poking to me
I fail to understand
if its you that is more atrocious or is it the world
When you are a hurricane
I know you will be gone soon
but then sometimes you are like
a lava oozing out in anger
you refuse to cool
the hot air burns my lungs
and I feel you are enjoying it
you are in no hurry to leave
you explode here today
and just before recovery starts
you explode there in vengeance
every-time I promise I will be calm now
every time I promise I will smile and not howl
but you leave a timer in me
it will set again,
call you back with its shrill noise
and its that timer that I have to find
once you are gone after you have feasted in my happiness
I have attempted to make peace with you
all in vain, your vengeance never dies
its the timer I think I have to find
before your last strike will have me grind
